Today we are going to talk about childhood, a tragic time for many people. I truly believe that everyone goes through some things in their childhood that they carry with them for a long time.
We will also discuss about healing your inner child.
Childhood
Now like many of you, when we were kids we don’t know anything, we don’t know good from bad, we don’t know right from left. We are at mercy to the world around us. We depend upon others to guide us and to tell us which way we should go. For some, the pains and tragedies inflicted upon them in their childhood are still carried deep within them as they grow up to be adults.
I truly believe that nobody gets out of childhood whole, they leave a part of themselves in their past which they must one day work to recover.
Now I don’t like telling sob stories, but I also had a rough childhood. It has caused callouses on my soul that I am still working to soften. Right now, I think the world is not a very nice place, but it’s difficult because I realize that perception is reality. If you think there is evil around you, then it will be very hard for you to foster trust in your environment and peers.
Inner Child
Now you’ve probably heard this phrase being thrown around a lot: “healing your inner child”. Now it may sound superfluous on the surface but there is actually a lot of wisdom in this concept. Within each of us, is a child, of the essence of a child. I realized a long time ago, that adults aren’t really adults, they’re just grown up children. Because whether you realize it or not, it’s your parents first time living life too. So nobody really knows what they’re doing eh? Everyones just doing the best they can.
The first part of life is figuring out what the hell is going on, the second part is finding your footing, and the third part is building something. And I guess the fourth part is reaping the rewards of what you have built. And somewhere along that trajectory you get to pass on what you’ve learned.
I believe I was around 15 when I snapped to reality. I had a huge wake up call and I stopped running on autopilot (impulsively driven actions). I woke up to a world, that was a lot different that the world I thought I had lived in. It was a dark place. That was the first part, the next 15 years I would spend wandering around and nurturing (and perhaps feeding into) the hurt I was carrying. That was the second part. The third part, started around 30, now I’m awake, now I’ve healed the gaping hole in my heart, now it’s time to build. Building has not been easy, I mean I realized, that pain is pain, but growth is also pain, it’s like, what the hell isn’t pain?
Healing
For me, healing my inner child, is about giving that child within me, what he always dreamed about. As a child I had so much ambition, so many dreams. And the world stole those from me. Now I don’t wanna play the victim card, but play along here it gets good. So many dreams, so many ambitions, so much wonder and awe. And at 30, I just stood there like, huh? I’ve already lived so fucking long and hard emotionally, how much longer is this gonna go on?
But then I thought about it, I was like, I’m not just fighting for me. I’m fighting for every single version of me that didn’t know what the hell was going on but persevered anyway. I fought and clawed my way out of hell to be standing here today. My inner child deserves to see me win, he deserves to see his dreams come true. He deserves that the person he fought through all that darkness for comes out on top. That’s who I fight for. I fight for my inner child.
He never got the world he wanted, he never got the friends he wanted, he was given a world that is dark and cold. But you know what? That little guy, he was a fighter man, he fought through that shit, so that I could stand here today and complete the mission. And I’m tearing up when I’m writing this, ‘cuz this shit is real man. This is who we’re fighting for. This is who you’re fighting for.
So you know what? Don’t just go out there and give it your best, go out there and fucking dominate!
Peace ✌️